One of them is that, though I have managed to reason myself, in theory, into the belief that I am attached to my own life, there have been times when, beset by emotional problems, or mere nervous anxieties, some of them so childish that I would not dare speak of them here, an unforeseen circumstance has arisen bringing with it a risk of death for me, and this new consideration has actually appeared of such slight consequence to me, compared with the others, that I have welcomed it with a feeling of relief approaching exhilaration.